I’m feeling banged up today God. I don’t suppose I’ll ever be free and clear of this kind of a day. I can either give up and just lay down in defeat, or I can pick myself up off the floor. More accurately, You can do it.
Sometimes, all I can do is let my soul bleed and trust on good faith You see me from Heaven.
I feel like people are watching, waiting for the final seconds to tick down until I just blow up. And then other times, I don’t think anyone’s watching at all and I don’t care if they are. This is one of those other times. This is between You and me.
I’m not writing this for anyone else but You God. I need You to hear me today.
I am not angry. That’s a big deal for me to say and mean it.
I am not lost in self-pity. I know others have witnessed incredible pain just as I have. I am not over. I have a purpose to live out. I half say this in a whisper of hope.
But I am tired, and I need You to see into me. I need You to pick me up. I just need You.
I don’t know why we have to live in such a broken place. And now, void of color it would seem.
There is only one thing I can do, and that’s reach out to You. I will not give up on You. You did not give up on me. Tell me we’re in this together.
Demonstrate Your love for me in unmistakable ways. I will be waiting and watching.
Selah.